JUST A WORD

Sometimes, I rather to be forgotten forever rather than being remembered. Sometimes I wish all of the memory will vanish without any trace. Because that is better. When I choose to let go and left, I choose to delete and throw everything. I choose to left everything at the last place of the memory. That why, I prefer to be forgotten so that it will be much easier for me to let go. But the funny thing is even I able to get rid of it, for some odd reason, it will return to me back. That why I really wish that I am capable to dump everything but the value of the memory is the thing that stop me. It stop me to left it behind. So i carry on while holding on the last memory. It's a proof that I am exist in someone life before. She said that you bring the memory away, far away with you and I will do the same thing. The different is, I am not turning back as I keep walking. Or running. I will never turning back. Because turning back will only hurt me. And I won't giving any risk to my

  They told me that hatred and revenge will never satisfied me. They told me that it will never make the pain less. They told me that it also will never comfort me. They told me that it will never bring me a good end. They even said that it will destroy me. Out of nowhere, they never ask me why? They never ask me what? They never question my reason. They never ask me the story of my side. Nobody want a negative energy inside them. But if there is a positive energy, negative will follow up. Because that is the mean of balanced. If you ask me did I still angry? No, I am not. If you ask me did I change? It depend on your instincts. But right now, I prefer living with a less people because less mean the pain will reduce. Less mean less responsibility. Less mean less feeling. Less mean less stress. Less also mean I don't have to care about lot of people. Healing my own heart is taking lot of time and cure. I afraid that it won't heal anymore so I will just live with this